I don't blame you at all. The white youth now are so self loathing, courtesy of perpetual bombardment in an academic setting about how evil their (white)history, cultures, customs, traditions and even language, basically all inherited characteristics are a micro aggression or racism.
I have seen numerous comments by the kids saying "White boomers can't die quick enough" They consider anyone over 40 to be a 'boomer' and also inherently fascist/racist..
The intentional propagation of white guilt to be weaponised and used against an entire continent in efforts to force it into submission/compliance with the globalist policy of open borders, with Islam pumped as the one world religion.
Fracturing the family unit, attempting to destroy social cohesion amongst white working class communities. Kids resent their natzee parents. White women resent white men and are now at the point of fetishising 'people of colour' or leaping to the defence of criminals of colour purely on the basis of their skin colour.
Another form of their own racism of which they're entirely oblivious to..
Continually re-writing European history to position people of colour in either significant or affluent positions of high society.
The (Revisionist) infection has now spread back as far as Roman times with the ridiculous claim that Septimus Severus was black! The absurdity doesnt end there either, not only was he black, he also built London!!!! Septimus Severus was actually born to a Roman mother and Carthaginian father, he wasnt responsible for building Londinium either.
"The opinion of 10,000 men is of no value if none of them know anything about the subject." Marcus Aurelius